Earlier this year I laid the rest a part of my life that’s now part of the past. My blog, alltheweigh.com, was the place I shared my thoughts and feelings for ten years. That’s a long time to commit to something, and while some commitments are supposed to last a lifetime, I knew that one needed to come to an end.
I started that blog (not knowing if anyone would read it) because I needed a place to feel accepted and validated. I had no idea that thousands of people would make their way to my little site over that decade, and as my readership grew, I changed…a lot. Now I have friends in my everyday life who accept the good and bad in me and desire to grow with me. I write now because I want to share the love of Jesus that has transformed every part of my life, and once again, I’m choosing to write even if no one ever reads it.
This time I’m not writing to feel validated. I’m writing in the hopes that someone will be reminded, or even discover for the first time, that God loves them, that he’s not mad at them, and that he’s not sitting up in heaven waiting to strike anyone down. Instead, he desires a relationship with you. If he didn’t want that, there would have been no reason for Jesus to die on a cross and rise again after conquering death, hell, and the grave.
He loves us so much that no matter how hard we try, we will not be able to separate ourselves from his love for us. I ran from God for a long time. I hated myself, and I wasn’t pleased with him either. And when I surrendered my life to him, he changed everything.
He’s not a liar, and he’s not being slow about his promises. He’s a good Father, who wants to lavish his love on you, but he’s given you the choice to receive that love or not. After years of turning away from Him, I surrendered my life to Him, and everything changed. That’s why I write now. Because once I thought I had sinned to much for God to love me. I believed that for a long time, but his Word is very clear. He loves us so much that while we were still steeped in sin, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8)
I’m thankful for this life and for the chance to share my thoughts and feelings here, and I’m excited to continue seeking Him and his will for my life.
Is your life surrendered to Christ? Are there areas that you still need to let go and surrender?